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Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Anti-prejudice women laws, or anti-prejudice gay and lesbian and transgender and transsexual laws, or open “Free Trade” markets, or Monopoly regulations, or EPA expansion, or universal free healthcare, or universal free Higher Education, or gun regulation laws, or anti-brutality police regulations and laws and anti-gun violence regulations and laws against black men and other minority citizens and civilians, or free childcare, or increase taxes on the wealthy, or friendly environmental laws, or free early childhood classes, or free public school lunches, or ending this 17 year long warfare in the Middle East and redistributing funds to veterans’ welfare and educational infrastructure, or immigration reform, or rightly so turning corporations back into what corporations are which is institutions rather than lending a false identity to corporations as individuals, or no oil pipeline through the Midwest’s heartland, equal pay for equal work, single payer healthcare system, or raise the minimum wage to $21.00 (twenty-one American dollars) hourly rate per increase (height) of annual inflation in the markets according to Mr. Bill Moyers’s information and research, or voter suppression laws, or free media without politicians’ threats or bullying or intimidation against the Free Press’s journalists’ or reporters’ lives who must get home in-time for supper and a bedtime story, or modern American infrastructure such as public libraries and public arboretums and public gardens and public sculpture gardens and public solariums and atriums and public planetariums and public graveyards as safe municipal services to all American private citizens and civilians or, or, or…etc.

Friday, September 29, 2017

“If you eat pudding on the Sabbath, you’ll be full all week.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Quiescent (motionless, at rest)

Animals that hibernate are in a quiescent state

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A book: “Manners Culture and Dress: of the Best American Society, including social, commercial and legal forms, Letter Writing, Invitations, &c., also valuable suggestions on Self Culture and Home Training” By Richard A. Wells, A.M., Illustrated, King, Richardson & CO., Publishers, Springfield, Mass., and De Moines, Iowa, 1891.

Street Etiquette.

Shouting.

Chapter 9.

Page 136

Never speak to your acquaintances from one side of the street to the other. Shouting is a certain sign of vulgarity. First approach, and then make your communication to your acquaintance or friend in a moderately loud tone of voice.

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Happy Friday!

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 personal journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 4,237 + 2,686 = 6,923

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #30 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #7 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Thursday, September 28, 2017

“Too much good food does more harm than too little bad food.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Raucous (disagreeably harsh, strident)

A raucous voice is anything but pleasing.

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Street Etiquette.

Shouting.

Chapter 9.

Page 136

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Happy Thursday!

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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What’s the worth of a woman who works from home?

Yes, I’m impoverished. I don’t deny it.

No, I’m not a “houseguest” in our home which legally half of the house belongs to me and I work out of the house each week.

No, I’m not any type of “houseguest” since I clean and keep up day after day and week after week and month after month and year after year for five years of suburban difficulties with screaming and yelling and physically harmful black neighbors which are now moving out of the neighborhood forever after twenty years of terrorizing the neighborhood.

Yes, I, too, fought my own battles without my current legal partner around to protect or ward off 99% of literal physical life threats and endangerment. I did the best I could with the very little help or support of a silenced neighborhood, too, traumatized and immobilized by one black family who ate away at the heart of a peaceful neighborhood in which many of the neighbors quietly work away in the home and on the property or work from home or telecommute from home.

Why do my efforts and time and energy go unnoticed?

Why does the tear-and-wear of a human body not quantify when it comes to dividing assets evenly rather than do off with what little there is and quietly claim assets for one’s own.

No, I wouldn’t like to be “bought out” of our marriage like some objectified piece of property especially when I contribute and give freely of much of my time, efforts and energy to a current legal partner and did give eight years to an entire family of In-Laws whether we like each other or not is irrelevant to any marriage since most In-Laws don’t like anybody their relatives marry.

Whenever I grant my current legal partner safe travels to go see and visit his relative at any time he wishes I do it with kindness of an open heart rather than fight about how my current legal partner ought to stay home with me which is unreasonable logic therefore I want my current legal partner to freely give of himself to his family without the expectation I ought to freely socialize with anyone unless I’m up to it since ill health makes people tired people.

I want the same respect as anybody else to say, “No, thank you. I don’t feel up to it.”

Thank you, anyway for the invitations, however. I’m physically tired and weekends and holidays are mine to do as I please which is mainly sleep and read and have meals since doctors have told me to take care of myself and to not give away my down time is the best way I know how to take care of myself simply because I don’t have the energy to socially gather as other people do when most of my weeks and months and years have been about domestic servitude to our home and household and marriage.

For eight years of marriage I’ve been impoverished no matter how hard I’ve worked in the home.

Working from home as a part time housewife and part time writer comes with very little benefits or financial security or job security.

Yes, in marriage, assets can easily be taken away even though marriage isn’t about money. No.

Marriage is about unconditional love.

Marriage is about union.

Marriage is about overlooking the damage and the wrong doings of all involved.

Marriage is about forgiveness rather than assets and diving assets fairly and equally rather than who’s going to end up richer than the silent domestic partner without an attorney or any financial help to square away what gets subtly misconstrued when two parties don’t discuss assets and how to best share or not.

Love isn’t unkind.

Love isn’t greedy.

Love isn’t about re-writing living wills and leaving everything to the In-Laws rather than to the spouse.

Love isn’t cruel.

Love isn’t quiet ulterior motives.

Love isn’t a game of numbers.

Love isn’t about proving love.

Love is about showing love.

Love isn’t about ultimatums.

Love isn’t about keeping score.

Since I’ve had nothing to my name through eight years of marriage then status quo and one isn’t afraid of money or loss of money when there hasn’t been much to gain from, anyway. Therefore, there’s no ulterior motive since there’s nothing financially gained.

In marriage, I willingly gave to my current legal partner to utilize my credit score to purchase two previous vehicles which he could not have gotten on his own.

Today my current legal partner made me watch as he traded in our former car for a new 2018 model. It was not discussed my current legal partner would saunter off and sell our former car in order to gain a brand new one only for himself. I hardly ever drive therefore I don’t care. What I care about is discussing difficult issues on how to best deal with assets rather than have one person make assumptions.

Personally, I feel if assets get sold off from right under my nose without me getting any financial benefit from sold assets such as our car was sold this morning with a 2018 trade-in then possibly this marriage wasn’t ever about love.

This marriage continually shows me, this is a marriage about meager assets which I helped build and how much to grab unto before it’s all gone.

What a bummer. I’m such an optimistic romantic.

This marriage then seems to be about money then love or respect and since I don’t have any money then I don’t have anything to be disagreeable about other than be truthful with me since marriage comes with very little job security then a woman must know if she is simply perceived as a piece of property or as an equal partner?

Marriage comes with absolutely hardly any security therefore is marriage about love or isn’t marriage about love?

Marriage isn’t a privilege.

Marriage is work with very little reward or return or gain.

Was marriage ever about love or was marriage only as a way to climb another person then disperse of them when done climbing the other partner as far as one did or does or could?

Is marriage only about is finances since I haven’t had or seen much of any money for eight years then on my end marriage wasn’t and hasn’t ever been about money since I haven’t had any.

My marriage has been about excruciating financial sacrifices due to a first 16 year marriage of insurmountable credit card debt and omitted finances from me since the root cause for me not to know must be shame or guilt or who knows what else?

When will I be treated as an equal partner in our marriage and be told I either hold some say and power with or without any money or I’m a cleaning commodity?

Personally, I’d like to be a stay at home wife who’s highly revered since I sacrifice much of my life force energy into cleaning and cleaning isn’t any type of marriage security unless others seem to get a say in how much or how little one must kill oneself cleaning which I can only do so much in one day.

Personally, I’d like to be thanked more often for all I do.

Personally, I’d like there to be more gratitude shown for sacrificing a life of solitude and a united force amongst neighbors since neighbors are more like co-workers than neighbors when one works from home.

Personally, I’d like to be highly valued for being a dedicated individual to the home since anytime any domestic partner stays at home then they do end up working more than most other workers or laborers do.

Personally, I’d like less mean spirited expectations placed on me that I’m not worth anything unless I break my neck proving how highly valuable I am in a marriage or in a family only if I work and work and work until death do us part.

Personally, I’d like to be seen as a human who contributes much without much financial return.

Personally, I’d like to be acknowledged once in a while and the acknowledgement goes far with me since I feel like a ghost working from home and I like working from home simply I don’t want to be forgotten by my partner, my spouse, my husband.

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Am I not one?

Am I not an equal partner in marriage?

Am I only a stepping stone?

Am I considered a child or less, not an equal partner in our marriage rather a domestic serf?

Then what am I?

Am I a warm body to be wasted away and ignored and overlooked since I’m not like the rest of the family and I don’t desire to be like others much less spend my free time with them?

Why am I not ever allowed to be myself or to voice concerns or voice opinions when it comes to our finances and how I want to spend my/our time together?

There isn’t much I need.

Except to be highly respected and highly regarded whenever I say “I’m tired” since I truly am tired and socializing with the In-Laws isn’t what I wish to do with my free time yet my current legal partner may saunter off and see his family any time he wishes without having me be pressured to ever have to travel the distance or host anyone since all I’ve ever wanted out of eight years of marriage is to be granted the money and time to cook a Thanksgiving turkey yet turkeys are expensive therefore we’ve foregone the turkey and all I ever wanted to do was to learn to make my own turkey simply to experience anything different than the grueling routine to clean and cook out of a box year after year.

What I want isn’t too radical.

I want a spouse who once a week takes interest in cooking some type of food together for the lovely experience of doing something different than grueling and domestic hard work and make cooking into a blessing rather than a chore.

I want a spouse who can talk about anything other than work since my work from home is something I’m not ever able to get away from.

I want a spouse who deeply acknowledges being at home all day is lonely business and domestic workers aren’t ever forgotten by their spouses when our spouse tells us they appreciate us.

I want to be noticed as a great modern homemaker since I’ve done the best with very little.

I want a spouse who asks me how I am at the end of each day.

I don’t want to be asked how my day was since my days are mainly full of dust or cleaning toilets or cleaning bathroom floors or cutting the lawn or gathering garbage or taking care of recycling or wiping down counters and so on and so forth.

I want to be asked how I am and without going on at length about it, rather quickly reply and answer, “ok” even if it isn’t quite and totally fully always the truth I’m truly always “okay” through eight years of hemorrhaging and tumors while home alone cleaning and writing.

I want a spouse who doesn’t see our marriage as a dollar sign.

I want a spouse to acknowledge I sacrificed eight years of health for the sliver of hope we might procreate and didn’t.

I want a spouse who can imagine the hard work and sacrifice done in the home and the strides taken in writing as a public service.

I want to be noticed as the hard worker I am rather than what more is expected from me when I’m already spent to my limitations.

I want for “no” to seriously be taken as “no, thank you.”

I want for the security to be wanted as a woman and a wife even when I have very little energy to give to In-Laws.

I want to be wanted because I truly am a good person and mostly always out of duty have put others above myself or before myself even when it’s been detrimental to my health.

I want to be honored for doing as much as I do and having it count for something as a lifestyle rather than in dollar quantity.

I want to be at peace and be granted the job security in which I matter when my contribution has been in the home and is all I know.

I want to be granted the security and peace of mind I’m not seen or perceived as “lazy” because always the laundry requires to be done or mending or vacuuming or this or that which holds a great deal of value to the partner who works outside of the home and doesn’t have the time to get to the weeding of the patio or to the dusting of furniture.

I’d like to be granted some security, damn it!

I want to be granted some security as a stay at home wife, without the insinuation that if I don’t halfway kill myself cleaning then I’m nobody because it’s not true. I’ve proven time and time again to be somebody who is a hard worker and extremely dedicated to the home and to writing not because I say I write more so because I actually do write unlike the first wife who said she wrote and hardly ever did.

Simply, I don’t ever again want to even have the insinuation to have to clean for others or to look after anyone else outside of our immediate home since taking care of other people’s interpersonal needs or complaints or competition or wants or needs is, too, much for me to carry such a heavy load and burden to always make others feel better about themselves when I feel tired.

I want to not have to emotionally carry other people because of some quiet expectation I only have worth when I labor or clean for others.

I’d like to be seen as an adult woman.

I want to be seen as a human who contributes as much as any other worker because working from home holds very little appeal even though I greatly enjoy the time alone, the time alone doesn’t fulfill the emptiness of the silence it holds.

Personally, I do quite well on my own and working from home.

What I don’t deal well with is the belittling or questioning about how much money I bring into the home working as a domestic worker since the work I do is truly invaluable to the home and to the marriage.

Why am I not given or granted consideration for which my body got old before it’s time from all of the past eight years of hard house work and domesticity and I’m, too, tired to socialize with my In-Laws who require much time and effort and energy I don’t have to give on weekends or holidays.

Personally, I don’t think I ask for, too, much.

Personally, I was and am a great wife even though we’ve been broken up since April 2016 and live as we best see fit.

Today, my current legal partner went and traded in our car to purchase himself a brand new car and I’m not shocked or excited or tormented or upset about it since I haven’t ever had anything much of my own except the hard labor I put in and hardly see much of a return.

Am I a cleaning woman or am I a wife?

Am I an equal partner or a pig to be squealed?

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count: 2,686

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 3,294 + 943 = 4,237 + 2,686 = 6,923

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #29 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #7 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Wednesday, September 27, 2017

“Miracles do occur, but they rarely provide food.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Quixotic (idealistic, not practical, imaginary)

His quixotic plan was rejected as soon as it was proposed.

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Street Etiquette.

Shouting.

Chapter 9.

Page 136

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Happy Wednesday!

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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No Blog

Okay, let’s get this NFL ordeal over with.

1) Any player who wants to kneel in front of any flag may do so.

2) Any president who calls any professionals slur words ought to be reprimanded.

3) In America no one gets fired for saying or doing the wrong thing. NO.

4) In America we give second and third and fourth chances.

5) In America we don’t fire people because we don’t like their personal viewpoints.

6) In America we don’t scream or shout speakers off podiums because we don’t agree with what they have to say.

7) In America we get along with our neighbors and co-workers and family members no matter who they voted for.

8) In America we listen to the opposition and we agree to disagree.

9) In America we’re open minded to the complexities of others.

10) In America we listen to each other no matter how much we may disagree.

11) In America the professional critics have the platforms all others are online social media individuals watching from the sidelines.

12) In America we solve our differences by joining local civic groups such as school boards or local city councils.

13) In America we don’t put down other people because we don’t like their intellectual discourse.

14) In America we’re proud to acknowledge differences of opinion.

15) In America we have the right to peaceful demonstrations.

16) In America we’re proud of people who are brave enough to make a difference in the lives of people of color.

17) In America we deal with racism head on rather than hide behind the lie racism doesn’t exist which racism totally exists.

18) In America we don’t give into police brutality or murder.

19) In America the cops are neither authoritative nor disciplinarian figures.

20) In America even racists get to voice their incorrect opinions.

21) In America we live for unity.

22) In America we don’t get divided and conquered by hate speech.

23) In America we utilize our critical thinking caps and we hold the privilege to criticize anything we want without being bossy or destructive of other people’s careers.

24) In America we look for silver linings.

25) In America we triumph when justice wins.

26) In America we’re one nation no matter how much hatred is thrown at us.

27) In America Caucasian privilege is real and unjust.

28) In America we’re patient with each other no matter how crabby or hungry or curmudgeonly or in pain we are.

29) In America we don’t abuse our Constitutional Rights to harm others.

30) In America we stand by the poor and the ill and the sick and the down trodden.

31) In America we don’t allow for cops to kill our own people.

32) In America we listen and defend justice.

33) In America public opinion is just that public opinion.

34) In America no sculpture or piece of art is taken down simply because Americans whine or miss the intellectual point to art.

35) In America we’re open minded or we’ll implode.

36) In America we give the benefit of the doubt.

37) In America we seek out truth.

38) In America we rely on professionals and experts to know best in their fields of expertise otherwise the rest are laborers and workers who don’t know best only have thunderous online social media presence especially when the majority is wrong.

39) In America we stand up for the national anthem unless we kneel for the lives of people of color against police brutality and the murder of our citizens.

40) In America we get to change our minds and after reading Mr. Eric Reid’s opinion piece in The New York Times I do personally believe the best thing to do is for the NFL to reinstate Mr. Colin Kaepernick back to his professional position since finding work in America is difficult and our talents can’t go wasted.

41) In America we get to change our points of view and be peaceful about the peaceful and respectful demonstrations of others even if we don’t agree with their stance we applaud their bravery.

42) After the wise words of Mr. Eric Reid I, too, shall kneel before the national anthem in peaceful demonstration against the murders and injustice of cops all over this nation which have forsaken our values and our very lives as people of color.

43) In America we get to change our minds to do what’s right and since Mr. Eric Reid was ever as eloquent as to change my immigrant mind about one of the aspects I hold most sacred in life then right wins over wrong.

44) In America Mr. Eric Reid and Mr. Colin Kaepernick are brave men who I look up to not because of their professional endeavors since football factually causes brain damage, however. In solidarity against all those who’ve died in vain in police brutality and outright murder I, too, shall kneel for the national anthem for the next decade. Peace to all.

45) May the people of America once again become open minded rather than sabotage all efforts to bring about balance to a most imbalanced nation which has run away with the inability to be open minded and free thinkers.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count: 943

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,724 + 1,570 = 3,294 + 943 = 4,237

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #28 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #7 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Tuesday, September 26, 2017

“Meat without salt is only fit for dogs.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Labyrinth (maze, a place full of intricate passage ways)

It was fun to watch him try to find his way out of the labyrinth.

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Shouting.

Chapter 9.

Page 136

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Side note: No, I don’t give myself my own nicknames.

I was nicknamed “Shakespeare” in 1996 along the Merrimack River of Lowell, Massachusetts when I did do open mic readings to the public and would get standing ovations for my poetry.

I was nicknamed “Einstein” in 2017 by the Hollywood, Los Angeles, California’s local transplants when discussing city water problems and overpriced housing and work situations and the outlandish expensive price to live in Los Angeles.

I was nicknamed “The Boss” in 2017 in uptown, Minneapolis by other skateboarders when discussing opportunities for skateboarding youth.

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One more note of distinction:

The Emmy’s: It’s all good and fine to politicize the Emmy’s, however.

For Sean Spicer to have been asked to attend and present at the Emmy’s doesn’t sit very well ever since the White House Press Room has been hijacked and taken over by a frightened administration who fears our lovely American Free Press and transparency.

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Yesterday, my current legal partner gave me an umbrella to keep. What a difference an umbrella makes.

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My psychiatrist and I spoke about how I’m not getting hired anywhere and most likely it’s because I’m overqualified therefore people don’t want to pay me what I’m worth.

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Amazon, please, put your headquarters right here in Northeast, Minneapolis; I don’t have any instruments to serenade you by.

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

Living in Transition

Finally, I have absolutely no need for swear words. I don’t feel angry anymore. I don’t feel hormonally imbalanced.

Now, for which my body is begun to heal and to live without any hormonal imbalance I don’t feel angry anymore. It’s a great relief to me to know I won’t be angry for the rest of my life since anger takes up a great deal of time and stress and energy.

The other cool thing I’ve discovered about living without a hormonal imbalance is I don’t hold onto the past and this is a great relief to me not to relive the past and not to hang onto the past or past wrongs and replay them in my mind and fester and get madder and madder the more I think about them. Whew! I have none of it anymore. I live and I forget.

Anger is another emotion for great sadness or grief. Not because I say it because the field of psychology says it.

Last night was one of my greatest tests of my young and mature adult life.

When I lived with a hormonal imbalance loud shouts and screams from angry and starving neighbors used to greatly scare me to the point to which I would call the Robbinsdale cops which was a complete mistake to have any notice or attention drawn to me or our neighbors since either police brutality or police indifference is ten times more difficult to deal with then the desperate and lonely and sad neighbors’ screams without any bread to eat.

If one can help it then don’t ever call the cops for anything unless it’s a live or die situation otherwise keep the cops out of any and all situations since the cops aren’t any real authority on anything other than slave catchers which is the history of police forces, they used to go out and catch runaway slaves. Nothing much changes in 300 years.

As of late, late night screams from black male voices don’t scare me.

As of late garbage doesn’t face me.

As of late nothing much faces me.

It’s nice to get back to a place of balance in which nothing is a big deal and nothing is the matter unless blood is spilt and shed.

Last night at about 9:07pm the sounds of one black man’s voice grew into screams and evolved into shouts while he continued on in such a state for a long duration of time. I wondered if maybe the man was ill or had a hormonal imbalance.

The man continued to scream and shout for close to 45 minutes until about 9:45pm then he made haste and got into his car and drove away.

The only pattern of screams I’ve noticed in this little corner of an oasis of north, Minneapolis seems to come from guests of our neighbors rather than directly from our neighbors themselves.

As of late I’ve taken the cue from other mature adults and their reactions which is to do nothing and to have no reaction whatsoever which I agree with them and have begun to take on their mode of operation.

Our neighbors get extremely quiet and stay quiet until the indignation is over. I stay quiet with them as well. We don’t go and stand outside and we definitely don’t look out of our windows and gawk.

Here no one calls the cops simply because one guest shows his fears or sadness to the rest of us while he screams from the top of his lungs like a little baby who simply requires more love and understanding from any of us around thus we show such communal love and understanding by not gawking at the grief and anger of another.

North, Minneapolis neighbors are cool.

North, Minneapolis neighbors understand the grief of the human condition in ways no others do.

This is a neighborhood for which we all hold steadfast to our quiet strength and none of us are tattle tales since none of us wants to deal with the cops late at night thus we stand by and understand shouting and anger is disguised as true sadness since we don’t need Ph.D.’s to tell us this.

Personally, I wrapped myself deeper into my covers and gave thanks and praise to be out of the cold street and tucked into a nice warm bed which is one of my best friend’s beds when he visits home from Seattle.

As of now I’ve been living with one of my best male friend’s parents.

It’s been a great time to get to know myself once again as a roommate to another aside from my current legal partner and see if I’m as terrible to live with as I thought I was and truly I’ve found out I’m far more quiet and serene and an avid reader of news more now than ever before.

Personally, I don’t like to watch news, however. I love to read news.

Professionally, I’d like for Donald Trump to stop acting like a spoilt and lonely child and stop dividing America since America is a country without professional jobs or career opportunities therefore the people already suffered enough through 16 year’s war.

Culturally, it’s the correct and right thing to stand up upon one’s own two feet and place one’s right hand over one’s heart as one sings the national anthem. Period. Debate over.

No, prayer and the national anthem don’t mix otherwise we’re adding apples with oranges and it doesn’t make any sense.

Keep god away from politics.

The national anthem is open to all citizens and civilians.

Prayer is only done by chosen religion.

To kneel in prayer to the national anthem is to politicize the national anthem.

Personally, I’m happy I don’t have to kneel before the country and men to sing the national anthem which I consider to be one of the most moving pieces of music in the entire world.

Personally, I’d like for Mr. Trump to stop making menacing remarks about North Korea since most Americans have known the North Korean People starve and are in no shape to go to war with a major power house such as the United States. I don’t know why North Korea is such a thorn in our side when most North Koreans are starved to death.

Peace at all cost.

It would be nice to get business men out of the White House and reintroduce actual diplomats rather than gimmicks in the form of Sarah Palin who didn’t even finish out her term in Alaska much less is she equipped to be a diplomat to her own dog.

For a big dog like America to threaten the poor and sick and starved people’s of North Korea is not only easy bait also it’s clear to see how easily rattled Donald Trump seems to be one hinge away from becoming unhinged.

Whether Donald Trump has psychological issues or not is none of my business.

What is my business as one voting citizen is to make sure Donald Trump doesn’t run away with delusions of grandeur and leaves The American People to starve and 33 million to waste away and die simply because the Republican Party insists on repealing the Affordable Health Care Act with a genocide bill.

Seriously, what will the Republican Party do when 33 million Americans drop dead from lack of health care?

Why does the Republican Party approach citizens as a problem and something to be murdered rather than humans who require the right to be assisted by our federal government?

Yes, health care is a right.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

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Word Count: 1,567

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,724 + 1,570 = 3,294

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #27 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #7 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Monday, September 25, 2017

“Only from your table can you go away full.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Lackadaisical (listless, not interested)

His whole attitude toward the project was lackadaisical.

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No Whining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

Last week I generously received $40.00 in cash.

The week before, I received $60.00 in cash.

The week before that, I received $80.00 in cash.

The week before that, I received $100.00 in cash.

The week before that, I received $120.00 in cash.

Each week I seem to receive less and less money in cash therefore I must stay ahead and afloat of the inconsistent amount of money I get.

Every two weeks I get $500.00.

Except in June 2017 and July 2017 there was zero money in our bank account therefore I once again didn’t make any payments to my student loans and ever since August 2017 I’ve owed an incredible amount of accrued interest in a short period of time.

Not only did I owe the original debt of $150.00 for each month of June 2017 and July 2017 in a grand total of $300.00 plus accrued interest then in August 2017 I paid a grand total of $300.00 which didn’t catch me up on my August 2017 payment then the accrued interest was still owed for $300.00.

In August 2017 I paid $150.00 for the August 15^th payment and in September 15^th I paid $300.00 to pay off some of the accrued interest. October 1^st, I must still pay another $150.00 to square off the student loan which did get out of hand and out of control for not having any money as a married couple in the months of June 2017 and July 2017.

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Now, my present 81-year young roommate lives on a “fixed income.”

She would rather not take on any type of renters then she doesn’t have to claim anymore than she already does or change her annual taxes therefore out of the kindness of her heart she wanted absolutely no money for the month of August, however. I have offered a small living stipend since I use up water and electricity and take up a little bit of room.

In other words I have $150.00 in the bank.

Ever since I’ve begun to put in 10 miles by foot then sooner than later I must purchase another pair of Pumas ($80.00) which are the most comfortable walking shoes for people like me with semi flat feet as well Pumas can be used for multi-purpose whenever the weather is nice then I can go and skateboard north, Minneapolis to get groceries at Aldi’s on the corner of Lowry Avenue North and Penn Avenue North.

This past week all week I saved up three quarters and on Sunday I splurged to purchase to unlock one of the Aldi’s shopping carts and leisurely walked around the store with my skateboard and helmet and groceries in cart.

Personally, I was mindful to bring my own bag except straight out of the store one of my recycled bags completely broke and thank goodness I did transfer and fit all of the contents from the broken bag into the other more robust bag then skateboarded back to Thomas Avenue North.

On my way to Thomas Avenue I noticed a new coffee shop opened up on Lowry Avenue North therefore this whole entire week all week I will save up however many dollars to be able to go and get a cup of coffee there on Sunday before I shop at Aldi’s.

The reason why I have to shop at Aldi’s right before I return to the house on Thomas Avenue is because I seem to need to purchase milk and cream cheese each week and with this heat as of late I need to get those two items back into the refrigerator as soon as possible.

A grand total of $17.79 is what I’ve spent on groceries per week. It’s not much, however. It gets me by.

As of this morning I’m 148 pounds. I’m hanging on to all and any little bit of body fat possible since I put in about 10 walking miles per week therefore I have to keep up my muscle tone.

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For years I haven’t owned an umbrella since umbrellas are expensive.

Now, I must make the purchase of an umbrella. I don’t seem to be able to find one at a reasonable price. This Sunday when I venture out to Aldi’s I’m hoping to stop at a dollar store and see if they have any umbrellas for reasonable sale.

My t-shirts have begun to get worn from all of the walking.

For the entire of my adulthood my t-shirts get these tiny little holes right by the belt buckle.

The amount of time doesn’t matter how long I’ve owned the t-shirt, I could have owned the t-shirt for an hour and there the tiniest hole will appear. The t-shirts can be brand new and there a hole appears.

Well, this weekend I must sit down and mend a whole bunch of my t-shirts since my weekly walking wardrobe has taken a massive hit. Although my walking wardrobe is my house cleaning wardrobe which rarely does anyone see much of.

The more one sweats and utilizes their clothes then the more one goes through clothes. I have everything I need, however. I don’t have the money to purchase new t-shirts therefore stitched and mended t-shirts by the belt buckle will have to do and be the new cool trend since I refuse to spend money I don’t have especially when the tiny holes which appear are right by the belt buckle.

Thankfully, I have enough socks and underwear and coats and sweaters and jeans to last a few many months.

Living with a cat has left two pairs of jeans in shreds.

As of recent I live with a black cat who loves to sleep on my bed and as of last week I found “black cat” in my laundry basket and has taken to sleeping on top of my clothes which is fine.

The only exception to the lovable cat liking my clothes is the cat tends to shred apart clothes therefore I keep my clothes hidden in suitcases otherwise I’m afraid none of my wardrobe will make it out alive.

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No, I don’t leave Ewing Avenue until 7:00pm since it’s when my workday is done.

Since it’s getting darker outside earlier now then I’ll be walking with a camping headlamp.

No, I’m not any type of sex worker and it’s extremely obvious since I speed walk and stop for no one.

No, I’m not looking for any trouble and it’s obvious.

No, I’m not out past 7:30pm unless I drive, even then.

Yes, I’m expected to arrive back at Thomas Avenue at 7:30pm.

Although one of my personal goals is to cut down the time I walk.

Yes, usually I’m washed up and in bed at 8:00pm then read the news for an hour then fall asleep by 9:00pm.

As goofy or as funny as I might look when I walk down the street with my camping headlamp it is quite necessary since there’s much car traffic at around 7:00pm. I must be seen clearly as any other pedestrians and bikers and skateboarders.

Within the recent month I’ve seen more skateboarders in north, Minneapolis than I have anywhere else in the entire of Minneapolis.

Mainly, north, Minneapolis is prime real estate for skateboarding since its flat and I’ve known it all, too, well since 2005 when I had an artist’s studio over in north, Minneapolis on Emerson and Broadway Avenue.

This is awesome prime real estate here on the corner of Lowry Avenue North and Penn Avenue North.

The main problem I see with north, Minneapolis is there aren’t many garbage cans therefore it’s difficult to dispose of one’s garbage while walking or skateboarding.

Personally, now for which I’m no longer hormonally imbalanced or without tumors of the uterus I truly don’t care about garbage since it seems to be a sign of our times.

Beverly Hills had garbage and Minnesota suburbs have garbage and the responsibility lay with all of the neighbors of each neighborhood rather than with only one single individual breaking their back for the rest.

Yes, I loved the expensive look of Beverly Hills, however.

Beverly Hills is an isolated community of money which isn’t prime real estate since in an Earthquake Beverly Hills will be the first to go. It’s a fact. I couldn’t help to survey the land while I was out there. I’d be terrified to live anywhere near Beverly Hills simply because it sits a good 90 degrees from the ground.

Anyway, back to north, Minneapolis.

Will someone with tons of city council experience and power please place garbage cans along Lowry Avenue North all the way to Theo Wirth Parkway otherwise pedestrians have to hang onto our garbage for blocks or miles.

The public garbage cans would make a huge difference since I personally think Lowry Avenue North will be the next uptown except less expensive and with more racial culture.

North, Minneapolis is healing my deep emotional wounds.

These past two months as an “Artist in Residence” has changed my complete outlook and perspective on the world.

Finally, on my own I found out north, Minneapolis is an amazing place to be with multiculturalism and there’s nothing to fear here since the people mind their own business and don’t go out of their way to harass the neighbors and keep the noise volume down since it’s our American duty not to go out of our way to annoy or harass or disrupt our neighbors since most people live with illnesses or economic difficulties or, or, or.

In north, Minneapolis we’re all in the same boat therefore no one puts on airs. It’s refreshing to live in a neighborhood where it’s not a crime to be poor. It’s refreshing to live in a neighborhood where people are actually quite good to each other since what else is there to be? Life’s already difficult enough as it is.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count: 1,724

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,724

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #26 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #7 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Friday, September 22, 2017

“Adam invented writing.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Raconteur (one who can tell stories well)

A raconteur is a valued member of a social group.

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

Not if, since I can find it in my heart to truly forgive and forget what transpired between my current legal partner and me on August 7^th, 2017 then hopefully my current legal partner can also open up his heart to forgive his own calculated mistakes against me, whichever.

The psychiatrist has told me to forget all for which happened to me in a most inappropriate and unjust 72-hour hospital hold and to concentrate on today and I do.

Ever since the three tumors and the uterus were removed I don’t hang onto the past because the hormonal imbalance is no longer there therefore I don’t replay the past inside of my head as I did for the past eight years.

Actually, the past doesn’t come up anymore. It’s a relief since who wants to live in the past? Nobody.

Ever since the three tumors and uterus were removed I feel emotionally lighter and free to let go of wrong doings. I’m no longer swimming inside a pool of foggy imbalanced hormone liquids which caused me to be fake-pregnant for eight years and ate away at my emotions and marriage.

Yes, a long time ago I decided to be extremely personal about my health and reproductive body parts here on this blog therefore other women might get a better chance at possibly being correctly diagnosed or medical advances made for the purpose and kindness to help out women and their unknown diseases rather than supposing women are “crazy” and deal with the fact women fall literally ill or gravely diseased by their own reproductive organs and hormones.

Finally, I can see the light at the end of a long tunnel.

Finally, I feel myself become softer and free from a health prison I’ve been held in for far, too, long as a prisoner to a hormonal imbalance which was as wicked as any prolonged disease or illness can be.

If, out of all of the stubborn people in the world I can forgive for any wrong doings or anything for which transpired between myself and others then others can and will also forgive themselves.

Personally, I don’t have time to hold grudges and I never have.

Simply, because I’m a staunch critic of culture and civilization it doesn’t mean I carry around my emotions since emotions are fleeting.

Personally, I’m more simple and peasant like and mainly care about what I’ll be eating today and how I can get outdoors and how many piles of computer work I have yet to get through and when our doggie needs a break to go outside.

Yes, my “writer’s voice” is tremendously strong.

Yes, my “writer’s voice” cuts like a knife. It’s meant to since as a modern woman I’m not always granted equal freedoms or equal measures or equal opportunities elsewhere therefore the page is the perfect place to demonstrate my power and strength of character without having to deal with melodramas or hurt feelings since what writers write is mainly and only to benefit society and culture at large.

I’m happy. Why can’t you be?

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

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Word Count: 587

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 3,817 + 1,656 = 5,473 + 587 = 6,060

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #23 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #6 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Thursday, September 21, 2017

“If you never repeat what you are told, you will fare none the worse.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Ennui (boredom, weariness, dissatisfaction)

The audience was overcome with ennui.

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No, my In-Laws aren’t literal “ingrates.”

No, my current legal partner isn’t an “ingrate” either.

“Ingrate” is a great Caucasian insult rather than utilizing expletives.

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Yes, my current legal partner would like the record recanted by re-stating he won’t leave me with nothing. Okay.

We’ll stand on the benefit of any doubt, I misunderstood or misheard my current legal partner at any point and whatever people say in anger doesn’t ever count since anything said in anger is nothing except heightened levels of emotion and chemical compound reactions. Okay. Let’s move on.

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There’s still hope for Robbinsdale’s out of control children.

For the first time in five years last night I heard a parent lift open a window and say, “I told you to play in the street and not to scream in the street.”

Yes! Smart parents know when their children terrorize the peace and civility of any neighborhoods. There’s still hope.

The north, Minneapolis children and teens are quiet and mind their own business and are truly street smart. I love living in north, Minneapolis. The people know what’s up.

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Not only did the Iran deal take painstakingly difficult work to put together also the Iran deal is worth keeping thus Iran will be kept from going after nuclear development and eventually nuclear threat or worse.

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Viewers would like to make the distinction about how it’s not baseball players’ fault when anyone gets hit by a baseball.

Of course, we’re all greatly affected by a little toddler getting hit in the face with a baseball. Blessings.

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Mexico City and Mexico as an entire nation we think of you and send blessings.

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How about those hurricanes? How terrible for Puerto Rico which is officially the United States of America.

Puerto Rico, you’re in our hearts and prayers.

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Why is our current administration in constant survivalist mode?

When will America get back to the Clinton era when food prices were low and gas prices were low and housing was inexpensive and people had cash in their pockets and people could afford to go to college or people could afford to go out to eat?

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If the president isn’t fired for all his Tweets then no one else ought to be fired for their Twitter account commentary. Does the White House have nothing better to do than to go after one single professional ESPN woman with her own social media opinions?

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

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Women’s Injustice

On Wednesday at 9:20am I met with my eighty-something years of age psychiatrist for whom I greatly respect and will continue to see since she’s an admirable positive advocate in my life who does weed through the BS of power struggles and injustices.

No matter what anyone else says, my psychiatrist believes I’ve survived and lived through a great “injustice” to have been kidnapped and taken against my will to North Memorial Hospital on the here say of my husband alone.

My psychiatrist also believes the only reason why I was kidnapped by Robbinsdale’s two Caucasian police officers and two of North Memorial Hospital’s Caucasian paramedics and taken away was incorrectly done only because I’m a “woman” and there’s a great “prejudice” against women still considered “hysterical.”

(Personally, I thought America had gotten over the 1950’s and we were well into 2017, however. Not so.)

My amazing psychiatrist also believes there’s absolutely nothing wrong with me and I have a clean bill of mental and medical health. Thank you.

Once again I’ve proven there’s nothing wrong with my mind. What a relief.

The only reason why I continually have to prove my “sanity” is because anytime I strongly disagree with Caucasian people then immediately I’m ‘pigeon holed’ into an “insane” category which I’m officially “sane.” Thank you.

My psychiatrist also thought it was wrong to have been injected against my will with 300MG of “Katemine” or better known as PCP.

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Whew! I can breathe easy no matter what anyone says about my case the lovely aspect of it all is I win the truth.

In the end the truth sets us free.

For the last time in my life at the age of 40 I’ve finally proven to be a good and mentally stable woman of color with an intelligent mind and my wits intact and my point of view proven right by a professional psychiatric expert who’s gotten to know me well enough to certify me completely guilt free and sane and a good contributing mature citizen adult. Ok, we move on.

Personally, I don’t feel as though I have to debate or argue or change anyone’s mind about me since my psychiatrist believes I’m free of all charges against me and my wits. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

It’s not me!

Yes! I proved my innocence. No matter what anyone says about me. I’m wholesome and completely well put together.

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Talk about being well put together.

Living in transition is difficult only because it’s not a long range plan.

As of late I’ve been living more like camping than anything else which if one’s ever camped then one knows one has to be extremely neat and structured.

Transitional living has made me extremely structured.

On Mondays I walk a mile with my laptop and the week’s dirty laundry and blog and job hunt and research and read and keep up with medical and scientific research and make meals for the week ahead and at 6:00pm get ready to shower and by 7:00pm I walk the mile back.

On Tuesdays I walk the mile with my laptop and volunteer vacuum the upstairs of our home which takes me an hour to do and job hunt and research and read and keep up with medical and scientific research and make meals and at 6:00pm get ready to shower and by 7:00pm I walk the mile back.

Side note: I’m no longer able to take two straight hours to vacuum the entire house since my body has tremendously slowed down. I’m now officially forty, plus I’m no longer on 20MG of Escitalopram (speed) therefore I’m not able to perform at a robotic pace.

On Wednesdays I walk the mile with my laptop and volunteer vacuum the downstairs of our home which takes me an hour to do and lift and shake out rugs and job hunt and research and read and keep up with medical and scientific research and make meals and at 6:00pm get ready to shower and by 7:00pm I walk the mile back.

On Thursdays I walk the mile with my laptop and volunteer with any cleaning of kitchen counters and wash any cups or dishes I might have left outside while smoking cigarettes throughout the week plus dust and blog and job hunt and research and read and keep up with medical and scientific research and make meals and at 6:00pm get ready to shower and by 7:00pm I walk the mile back.

On Fridays I walk the mile with my laptop and volunteer to cut the lawn and sweep the front sidewalk of any grass clippings which mainly takes about two hours to do as well as pickup sticks and sweep the patio and weed the patio and make meals for the weekend ahead and at 6:00pm get ready to shower and by 7:00pm I walk the mile back.

Yes, the reason why I don’t ever curl up into a small ball and cry is because I have too much to do and to accomplish and to get done in one single day even though I’ve greatly slowed down now since I’m no longer on any 20MG of Escitalopram.

The sacrifices women make for men are tremendous even if no one notices the small measures or the small treasures women take to painstakingly keep the daily household operations running.

To make daily household operations look good is a gift since mainly the lower back starts to hurt and age sits in and small pains and aches take over the body with age.

Why is housework not ever considered important to me is beyond me since who’s going to dust or who’s going to cleanup spider webs or who’s going to deal with broken fall leaves all over the carpet or who’s going to clean out the tub or who’s going to clean toilets or who’s going to wash windows or who’s going to clear bacteria off of the countertops?

No one except women since housework is still considered women’s work which such a concept is clearly “wrong.”

For most of 80% of Americans who don’t or can’t or won’t afford a housemaid or cleaning personnel then most of the brunt of the housework still befalls women and the only irritating aspect of it is women don’t get a second consideration or a gracious “thank you” or much of any thought for doing such grueling and never ending work without any end in sight since working from work people seem to work longer hours and more than the average worker.

Personally, a “thank you” goes real far with me.

Personally, a positive affirmation goes a long way with me.

Personally, not being taken for granted makes me feel human.

Personally, I love to work in the home yet I don’t want to be overlooked otherwise I feel like an object rather than a woman or a wife.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

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Word Count: 1,656

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,085 + 2,732 = 3,817 + 1,656 = 5,473

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #22 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #6 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

“Where the good pay, the bad demand.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Flagellation (whipping, flogging)

He was sentenced to flagellation in the public square.

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

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No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,085 + 2,732 = 3,817

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #21 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85

75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #6 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones to clear out of the bloodstream: “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

“We would all live in luxury, if we didn’t have to eat.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Ensconced (sunk into or enclosed, snug)

Ensconced in an easy chair, he enjoyed his pipe and book.

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DACA: We stand by the dreamers.

The dreamers stay and continue a harmonious life of peace and beauty.

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Residents of Florida and Texas we’re still here.

We’ll relocate residents or smartly rebuild since this can’t go on forever, destruction then rebuild, destruction then rebuild.

Yes, climate change is here to stay.

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Yes, I keep up with news more now than ever before since my 81 year old roommate is lively and watches mainstream news media therefore I’m also tuned in more than ever before.

The Emmy’s. Yes, we tuned in and watched.

The #1 question I get from older women viewers is why the front of the dresses must be cut to the navel? I sincerely don’t know. It must be a thing. We did stare at women’s chests. Not once did we look at their beautiful faces or listened to what women had to say since their dresses distracted from their words. All we had in front of us were breasts as though it were feeding time. Ok.

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

Yes, my current legal partner and I’ve been officially broken up since April 2016. Our lives are our own to do as we best see fit.

Living in transition since Saturday, August 12, 2017 for sure holds many challenges such as not having a car, although. It’s nice not to have the responsibility to drive or take care of a car.

No, my current legal partner and I aren’t “estranged” from each other since I make use of our home each workday without crossing paths with one another I work out of Ewing Avenue since we have internet at Ewing Avenue.

Without crossing paths Monday through Friday from 11:15am to 7:00pm I’m positioned out of Ewing Avenue in Robbinsdale, MN where I still watch out for our dog and put him outside a total of about eight times per day, cook meals and vacuum and wash dishes and do my laundry and cut the lawn as a gift to our property and home and job hunt and write and research and edit. Whew! It’s more than enough.

For as capable as my current legal partner is -- it seems difficult for a full time (out of the home) working person to keep up with some of the basic day-to-day home operations as opposed to when one partner is home full time ‘holding down the fort’ therefore as of last week I jumped back into domestic lifestyle to lend some assistance since the patio looked sad and in dire need to be weeded therefore on Friday I got down and weeded the patio before the bricks start to come up. It felt good to work with my hands rather than do computer work.

My main residence since August 12, 2017 has been out of Thomas Avenue in north, Minneapolis, MN.

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As of recent my saving grace has been the two mile walk to and from Thomas Avenue and back and forth to Ewing Avenue.

Personally, I’m not someone who likes to walk to the park for the sake to walk to the park or around the park or to walk the dog.

Personally, I like to briskly walk with posh urban intention and purpose from point A to point B when going someplace I have to be and am expected to safely arrive at a certain time of day or early evening.

The daily two mile walk has brought much beauty, grace and strength of mind as well as confidence to move forward and onward without all of the heavy emotional past. I truly know who I am inside the saving grace of each mile.

The two daily mile walk allows for me to be inside each breath I take and to look around and notice how beautiful the surrounding neighborhoods are and the architecture of north, Minneapolis and the amazing “Cleveland Neighborhood Garden” which I make sure to cross the street there then I’m able to walk at a closer proximity to the garden and take in it’s amazing and vibrant colorful vegetables.

The daily two mile walk is a game changer for me.

The daily two mile walk is pure inhale and exhale of natural body movement and awe and wonder. I feel completely free and a part of something bigger than myself.

Much of my life is heady with piles high of research and more reading materials and typing and thinking and clarifying and more typing and editing therefore to get out and be in nature and the great outdoors does my body excellent.

No, these walks aren’t for exercise. These are walks to and from one point to another as bipedal transport.

There’s a type of inner strength I’ve begun to gather within myself I haven’t felt in about five years.

There’s a type of sense as to who I truly am with my own autonomy.

There’s a type of freedom which I haven’t felt in years.

No matter what may happen with our marriage or not there’s something immensely beautiful about the miles for which grounds me and makes me quite grateful to be alive and to go on no matter how challenging this change is.

The walks bring about a type of serene certainty. I feel myself regain the grace and beauty and inner personal strength I had before I fell ill eight years ago with a hormonal imbalance.

It’s the miles which have pointed me in the right direction which is outward looking.

It’s the miles which have made me realize I thought marriage was the answer to all things which it isn’t when it comes to making and having friends and hobbies.

It’s been the miles which have brought me clarity about how I gave my entire mind, body and being over to a marriage and left nothing to myself to comfort and take care of myself.

Yes, it’s been eight years of an unhealthy lifestyle for which I lived for one man and one man only which is no way to live. It’s my fault. I didn’t know any better.

Yes, I’ve lived like the one docile Asian character in the book “Joy Luck Club” who only lived for her marriage and nothing more.

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Yes, I cleaned like a slave servant and cooked and took care of all things in the home and waited for my partner to get home each night at 8:00pm only to feel lonesome in a marriage in which my partner came home and got his supper and sat in front of the television until 11:00pm or 12:00.

In many ways as of late I’ve rediscovered I’m a morning person and do my best work earlier in the mornings rather than waiting for someone to go to bed or being afraid to disturb someone else early mornings with the clatter of typing. I love to be in bed by 9:00pm and early to rise.

Yes, it’s my fault I allowed myself to become unseen therefore we’d fight because I simply wanted my partner’s romantic attention or any attention of any type other then “hello” or “goodbye” each morning and each evening or long arduous stories about work.

Yes, it’s our fault for not making any “face time” for each other.

To go eight years without much of any “face time” is devastating to a partner who works alone from home.

Yes, it’s our fault for not allowing romance to bloom.

For years I gave way to a lifestyle which hasn’t been conducive to my spiritual growth or to my spirit.

Personally, I don’t ever believe anything is “cracked” or “broken” since humans aren’t any piece of pottery.

No matter what may I believe I’ve learned a great deal about how I want to be noticed once in a great while and I would like to be asked how my days are rather than constantly putting the needs of someone else above my own.

Yes, I’d love to be wanted and needed in other ways other than cleaning support or constantly taking care of the needs of In-Laws.

Nothing’s ever wasted between humans except not to make the time to stop and truly notice the splendor and awe and wonder in the other partner. I’ve been a domestic and emotionally supporting partner, however. Supporting In-Laws isn’t romantic.

We allowed for our In-Laws to get in the way of our marriage and create insecurities about how I worked from home and the insinuation was I held no worth since I didn’t bring in money yet I nearly killed myself cleaning to prove I had something to bring to the table when all I ever needed to bring to the table was myself. If I wasn’t good enough then I wasn’t ever going to be and we ought to have left it there.

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A woman’s life and her unstable relationships with her In-Laws are nothing like a man’s life and relationships with his In-Laws.

It’s now been the Muslims who taught me about how In-Laws don’t care anything about the married partner only their boys therefore don’t spend any time with the In-Laws.

It’s a choice to contribute rather than kill oneself trying to please In-Laws who will drive one into an early grave from the stress they cause and the unwarranted expectations they might have which they ought to have none at all whatsoever.

Much of my life I’ve taken care of business or I’ve taken care of others to fulfill heavy pressure cooker expectations to take care of others especially when I’ve been berated or socially pressured, however.

As I get older I have less and less energy to take care of other people and their cleaning needs since I have needs of my own to take care of such as I need professional haircuts no matter how little money we have.

Personally, I would love to have any beautiful piece of jewelry purchased once in a great while then I can have it as a reminder I’m noticed and alive.

Personally, even though I’m allergic to flowers I’ve love to be thought of and be brought home cut flowers once every blue moon.

Personally, I’d love to be asked to the ballet or to museums and get away from domesticity and all encompassing house cleaning or chores otherwise I feel used and washed up which I’m not. I’d like to see anything other than comic action figure films.

Personally, I’d like the one yearly Christmas party not to count as our only date for one entire calendar year since a soul will wither away and die without any new adventures or experiences.

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For years, I’ve been told to go out and do all of these events by myself and I have except going to a show or going to the ballet isn’t the same as sharing an experience with a tired spouse who only reaches for the television remote control.

Being romantically neglected isn’t any grounds for divorce.

Most women seem to be alone and neglected in life.

Men either die younger than women or women outlive men.

Women mainly live alone or go at it alone or men have different interests than women therefore women are alone.

Much of the problem of the past eight years of marriage is there hasn’t ever been much money left over for me to take up a hobby or interest therefore I’ve covered up the fact I don’t know anything about our omitted finances therefore I stay at home to help with the financial burden of not having any money except I neglect myself to a point of fault.

Even though as of late I have about $60.00 per week to eat, this is the most money I’ve had in years to go and run my own errands and do and have my own life.

Yes, I’m having a blast even though the challenges are difficult I find myself having some of the best time of my life having some type of autonomy and freedom to be myself without constantly having to expand or have a large output of energy as to how to best please and take care of a partner who is lost in his own world of fast food and television which is alright for him, however. Not for me.

For five years in the evenings I’ve escaped to the backyard to chain smoke cigarettes to alleviate the pain and pressure of being a perfect wife who doesn’t get noticed much.

No longer do I want to be a perfect wife. I’d like to go and get my haircut from a professional or get my nails done once a year or anything other women do to cope with the stressors of life.

Personally, I’d love to set aside $50.00 per week for the next decade and take my best friend and I out to breakfast in the same manner in which my current legal partner and his best female friend’s taken out on our pickle each week for a decade while I sit back and have absolutely no money or no one to go out to breakfast at least once per week which my current legal partner is the only person I ever wanted to go out to breakfast since we hardly ever did get any “face time,” however.

Something always came up or whatever the reasons then my personal needs weren’t met and I allowed to be set aside since I thought to be meek and mild was the only way to be a good and dutiful wife yet I was sore about the whole ordeal which creates tension in a marriage.

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Personally, I’d like to shop at the Farmers’ Market downtown, Minneapolis, however. It requires a car. It’s always about the car.

Personally, I’d like to get away from the entrenchment of being walled in or confined to a solitary home.

No, I don’t mean work outside of the home since I’m an excellent homemaker and contributed more than I can add up in monetary value. My domestic services are invaluable.

Simply, I mean “get a life” and do something other than work and more work.

My main stressor in life is I work more than I play.

My main stressor in life is I’ve mainly taken care of other people rather than taken care of myself. I felt the pressure to be dutiful and docile therefore I was and it got me nowhere to be such an incomplete human.

All of the above is my fault since I’m the “master of my own destiny,” except I haven’t ever known how to incorporate my interests with my current legal partner’s interests.

Lately, from articles I’ve begun to learn the most difficult marriages are the second marriages which I’m the second wife and I do believe the second wife gets the brunt of the anger of the failures of the first marriage and the second wife gets cheated out of a fully trusting and completely well rounded marriage.

Plus, the second wife also picks up the tab of the first wife’s economic disaster she left in her wake therefore there’s hardly anything leftover for the second wife except literal leftovers.

My problem is I’ve been too naïve and gullible yet I don’t want to fight about finances and the reason why we’re still eleven thousand dollars in debt to some unbeknownst line of credit is daunting on me since we practically live off of nothing. I think I have to not care since I didn’t create the debt of the first 16 year marriage yet I’ve dealt a heavy burden and blow from the economic irresponsibility of the first marriage therefore I haven’t gone back to school which is all I’ve asked for and wanted for the past 11 years which I’m continually talked out of it since school is expensive yet it’s what my intellectual and spiritual growth requires to move forward and be fulfilled to further learn.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 2,000

Word Count: 2,732

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,085 + 2,732 = 3,817

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #20 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #6 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones to clear out of the bloodstream: “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Monday, September 18, 2017

“Some people are like new shoes: the cheaper they are the louder they squeak.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Raillery (mild ridicule, bantering tinged with satire)

He resorted to raillery when he saw nothing else would work.

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No Whining

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

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In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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Living in Transition

Yes, my current legal partner and I have been officially broken up since April 2016. Our lives are our own to do as we best see fit.

Living in transition since Saturday, August 12, 2017 for sure holds many challenges such as not having a car, although.

We are a one car household through eight years of marriage I hardly ever had our car during the work weekdays thus the car doesn’t make much of a difference to me whether I walk or drive.

Finally, as of Sunday the weather turned cool. It has yet to be seen how difficult it will be to run errands by foot during cold fall days.

For example it’s supposed to rain by noon today.

Hopefully I’ll be completely out of the elements by noon since I have yet to add an umbrella to my meager and humble walking wardrobe.

Living in transition while walking or skateboarding to each single place does make me tune into weather reports more frequently as well as earlier in the days otherwise it could be disastrous.

By 7:00am CT my 81 year old roommate and I sit downstairs in our pajamas and robes and drink black coffee (got the coffee pot working again) and watch weather reports since she has an extensive flower garden and raspberry bushes to watch over before the second crop is done for the season.

This is the first fall I’ve watched the vibrant neighborhood leaves turn and drop while I’ve walked to and from. It’s been a stunning fall to say the least. It’s been a true Charlie Brown fall.

Last week alone I walked 10 miles by foot.

This weekend I skateboarded to Aldi’s on Lowery Avenue North and Penn Avenue North.

Personally, I love all of the peaceful people walking about and parents with strollers and bus folk and resting folk at the bus stops waiting to commute to and from.

On Sunday afternoons most people seem to frequent Aldi’s in their Sunday best therefore I get to see an array of gorgeous outfits on people they wouldn’t otherwise wear on weekdays.

This Sunday for the first time I went to get a shopping cart and was surprised to find out one must spend a quarter to shop with a shopping cart. I was too cheap and didn’t have a single quarter on me to spend the quarter therefore I shopped without the shopping cart and awkwardly carried around my skateboard and helmet and groceries and forgot the milk since my arms were full of other miscellaneous items.

Second when I went to pay then I realized at the registrar I had to pay for a plastic bag if I wanted an Aldi’s bag therefore next time I’ll have to bring my own bag since I’m too cheap to pay for a bag each time I grocery shop.

In Minneapolis I breathe easy since its Minneapolis and a metropolitan city for which the inhabitants understand their responsibility to each other which is to keep the peace and stay calm and carry on.

The neighborhood I stay at is an incredibly mixed neighborhood with many different points of view and lifestyles and expressions.

Personally, for the first time in five years I feel as though I fit someplace as a woman of color in a mixed neighborhood with respectful neighbors.

The people are quite peaceful and urban and from what I can tell many people openly and without fear walk around this part of the city.

Rarely, do I hang out pass dark however, in the day time people are peaceful as apple pie.

Most likely I’m not supposed to admit this, however. I truly missed living in the urban inner city.

There’s something extremely safe about the urban inner city especially for a woman of color I feel free from harsh judgment or scrutiny or crimes against my person. Ah, I can breathe easy once more.

This part of north Minneapolis is quite golden since the residents do their Ut-Most best to be good neighbors and good residents and excellent pedestrians.

Only once did a black man panhandle and directly crossed the street in front of Tootie’s and asked me for bus fare. Although I had to inform him if I had any bus fare then I myself wouldn’t be walking and he seemed to understand the simple truth to life.

Walking is a way of life here rather than a chore or lack of resources. Walking is a posh aspect to cosmopolitan lifestyle since this is Minneapolis after all and not the suburbs.

The one thing I had long forgotten about was all of the amazing public lot gardens and painted murals all over urban posh Minneapolis. Oh, how I missed Minneapolis! Minneapolis is home to me.

Oh, the glorious community lot gardens win.

My heart is filled with much of north Minneapolis natural wonder and beauty.

The north, Minneapolis homes are stunning. I’m surprised north Minneapolis is overlooked when many of the houses are exceptionally gorgeous and the trees stretch a mile high.

The trees in north Minneapolis hold a serious history.

Here people actually keep private gardens unlike the suburbs.

The secret about Minneapolis is this: Minneapolis has a laidback and racially free feel like no other.

Minneapolis will always be Minneapolis since the people make up Minneapolis. The 21^st century people of mixed blood run this city rather than Caucasian only or other.

It’s been five years exactly since I’d lived in a city and didn’t realize how much I missed the safety of a city. I feel as though I can breathe easy and get along and get on with the people since we’re all in the same boat together and either transitioning into a life or transitioning out of a life.

There’s nothing scary about transition. Nothing.

One day at a time.

If one takes the time to look around then transition can be an eye opener as to what we were missing before and what we might need more of going forward.

I love living in north, Minneapolis.

I have safe passage through north Minneapolis until the end of October 2017 then I don’t know. I suppose I must start looking for a roommate for the long term -- especially someplace with internet since I must have internet.

Otherwise, Minneapolis let’s take it one day at a time.

Fear not.

We’re still here. I’m still here and looking out for the best interests of the people.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count: 1,085

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,085

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #19 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #6 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones to clear out of the bloodstream: “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Friday, September 15, 2017

“The first winner is the last loser.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Languish (to lose strengthen, force, or animation)

Since freedom was denied to him, he was left to languish in prison.

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

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In 2017-2018

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Love

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Hate

~~~

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In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

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Any

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Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #16 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #38 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #32 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #11 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #5 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over fake-pregnancy hormones: “OLANZapine” 5MG

Thursday, September 14, 2017

“To have bad luck, one still must have luck.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Refractory (resisting ordinary treatment, unmanageable)

A refractory boy is hard to handle.

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No Whining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

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No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

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Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #15 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #38 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #32 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #11 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #5 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

“If you don’t depend on luck, you will postpone bad luck.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Flamboyant (ornate, fancy)

His flamboyant address was not well received.

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

~~~

No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #14 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #38 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #32 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #11 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #5 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones: “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Tuesday, September 12, 2017

“Without luck nothing happens right.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Lapidary (pertaining to cutting or polishing gems, stones)

The lapidary art requires great skill and patience.

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

~~~

No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #13 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #38 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #32 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #11 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #5 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG

Monday, September 11, 2017

“Our ears often do not hear what our tongues utter.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Ravenous (over-eager for food, or anything else)

He worked hard all day and developed a ravenous appetite.

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No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

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In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

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No, neither is the White House nor Hollywood, Los Angeles, CA a “dump.” Come on, people.

What the President of the United States says is global news.

What blog writers write is tongue-in-cheek.

Why doesn’t anybody find my writings funny?

Whenever I talk then people laugh out loud and think either my “morbidity” or “dark sense of humor” or literary “alter-ego” or “speaking voice” are incredibly funny, however. Not when I write then people don’t find my sarcasm funny. It must be a multi-lingual thing.

Writing and speaking are worlds apart.

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The fake-pregnancy hormones are finally starting to completely leave my body. I’ve begun to feel happier and more humane and human once again. It’s been years since I’ve felt this calm and serene and good.

The fake-pregnancy hormones are finally leaving my body and I’ve begun to once more see clearly through life. Ah.

No, I haven’t had a menstruation cycle since July 17, 2018 and since I no longer have a uterus then I’m starting to think I won’t get another period ever again. Who knows? I don’t. I have to look it up.

Finally, I’m not hormonal with fake-pregnancy hormones and living with a hormonal imbalance.

Finally, I’ve begun to see the error of my ways.

Still human and definitely not “perfect” by any means thus thank you and bear with me a little longer. I’ll make it up to all of us with the podcast.

We made it through eight years of fake-pregnancy hormones and neither the tumors nor the three operations killed me.

I’m right here.

I’m here.

Thank you to all of the humane humans who understood my complex illness and disease through eight years of struggle and hormonal imbalance torture. It was a long journey and we made it.

I love. I’ve always loved even though the fake-pregnancy hormones hated with spite and disgrace.

Who knows why fake-pregnancy hormones are as hormonal and imbalanced and at times hateful? I don’t know the answer. It must be a way for a mother to protect her baby in uteri. I think I understand pregnancy more than anything else.

Also, please, be extremely patient and loving with women with any hormonal imbalance or literal pregnancy and forgive them for they know not what they do while blinded and inundated with a hormonal imbalance and rush of constant hormonal rushes.

After this eight years of an endured terrible illness I’m going to get my life back. I’ve been trapped in a torture chamber of hormones.

Oh, my goodness! Thank you for being as kind as anyone was to me. I didn’t know I was such a little tyrant. Only a “little” tyrant since the fake-pregnancy hormones was eating away at my personality and life.

Anyone I’ve ever offended then I meant it at the time while under a terrible illness from fake-pregnancy hormones.

My deepest apologies.

I come from the heart therefore I meant it and will only apologize for the anger I caused anyone, however. I won’t apologize for the wisdom and experience and maturity. Simply I needed to find better words than swear words and negative truths.

Peace.

Peace be with you.

And also with you.

And with thy spirit.

The Lord’s prayer.

I forgive. Will you? Yes.

Of course, we all forgive and forget and move on forward. I wish you peace and joy.

For eight straight years I was a prisoner of a most despicable illness of fake-pregnancy hormonal imbalance.

No more hemorrhaging. I thank the gods’ almighty for getting me and us through this terrible time in our lives. Whew!

Hopefully, the Robbinsdale, MN neighbors will forgive me and forget how at times the fake-pregnancy hormones made me negatively act out without any respite for the past five years of hormonal imbalance. I had no idea I’d lost a sight of myself.

Slowly, each day I’ve regained myself back. I’ve always been a sweet person. I’m right here for you. I’ve always been right here for you. I’ll continue to be right here for you since I always mean well. Wishing all nothing except the best. We made it! We made it! We’re still here.

Minnesota, we made it.

What a trying time it all was.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count: 802

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #12 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #38 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #32 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #11 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #5 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG

Friday, September 8, 2017

“To flee from God is to flee into the self.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Sinister (corrupt, prompting evil, wicked)

From the way things are going she knows that sinister forces are at work.

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

~~~

No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #9 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #37 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #31 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #10 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #4 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG

Thursday, September 7, 2017

“The hen hears the rooster’s sermon--and searches for its own kernel of corn.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Rebate (a deduction; return of part of an amount paid)

She had expected the usual discount but this generous rebate astonished her.

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No Whining

No Complaining

~~~

“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

~~~

Love

Trumps

Hate

~~~

The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

~~~

No Blog

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #8 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #37 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #31 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #10 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #4 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

“If I shall be like him, who will be like me?”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Recalcitrant (showing stubborn opposition, unruly)

He gave every indication of being recalcitrant.

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No Whining

No Complaining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

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Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

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Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 private journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #7 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #37 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #31 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #10 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #4 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

“Some men are like weasels; they hoard and not know its purpose.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Licentious (loose and lawless in behavior; dissolute)

The criminal regretted his licentious conduct.

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

~~~

“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

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The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

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1950’s Modern Lifestyle Cost

Actual Market Value

Inflation 2017

Deflation 2018

Democracy vs. Capitalism

Well, let’s begin at the very beginning.

Let’s explain it as though we’re completely ignorant.

Why did capitalism become a tyrant?

Why capitalism does take its cues from totalitarianism?

Why did modern capitalism turn fascist?

When will modern capitalism turn direction and become democratic?

Why is capitalism a huge bully in the lives of the common working folks?

When will capitalism stop and take some real inventory of how much destruction it does?

When did our capitalism turn into a fiction novel of Orwellian fake idealisms?

“1984” is a made-up and fake book or novel by George Orwell. America is supposed to stay away from turning into some made-up construct of an author’s figment of their imagination.

The entire point to the book “1984” is not to become like 1984.” Yep.

Please, sometime pick up a book and read something, anything.

Why does modern capitalism desire to turn into a totalitarian regime?

Does capitalism not understand its real value in the lives of citizens?

Is capitalism illiterate?

Is modern capitalism cruelty? Yes.

Does capitalism not understand its value at all?

Why doesn’t capitalism side with the democratic people rather than with tyrants?

Is capitalism alright?

Is capitalism alright with starved workers of America looking on, while “fat cats” get fatter and the rest of our democracy starves?

Why is modern capitalism as corrupt as ever?

Who lets modern capitalism get away with its ridiculousness?

Why doesn’t capitalism straighten itself out?

Why doesn’t capitalism stand for the underdog and the underprivileged average working citizens of the United States of America?

Why doesn’t capitalism decipher between real and fake?

Why doesn’t capitalism choose democracy for which the majority always gets to eat?

Why does capitalism chose to rule when only one ruler is subject to death by the starved masses?

Why doesn’t capitalism side with the average American workers?

Is capitalism dead? If so then let’s go back to a democracy and forget this time and place.

Doesn’t capitalism understand 400sq ft studio apartment is only 400sq ft and the walls rarely expand?

Doesn’t capitalism understand a 400sq ft studio apartment doesn’t go for anything more than $300.00 since the lifestyle cost hasn’t increased since the 1950’s?

Why is capitalism wrong?

Why doesn’t capitalism actually “get on board” and goes back for the American workers and our modern stagnant 1950’s wages?

Why is capitalism greedy?

Why is capitalism as dusty and outdated as ever?

Why did capitalism go backwards rather than forward?

Why is inflated capitalism so yesterday -- so 1980’s?

Let’s implement “rent control.”

Let’s once more implement an annual 3% raise in wages.

Let’s implement a democratic lifestyle for all Americans and not only those who can afford to eat while the rest of 80% of America starves through 16 year’s continuous war.

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Modern “Inflation Rate”

Is a Lie

2017 “cost of lifestyle” is ridiculously “expensive” which the “lifestyle cost” doesn’t match any of the other overly inflated stock markets’ deceitful values which mainly such overly inflated fake markets get “fat off the hog” or takes advantage of The People as American workers for no other reason other than deceitful markets’ values seem to think markets can and do, however, wrong the markets’ values are way off course and other markets know it, however.

Other useless and deceitful markets refuse to correct the direction of their wrong doing and take their correct place next to modern “lifestyle cost” which “lifestyle cost” always sides with The People and their wages and not with deceitful markets’ inflation for the sake of profit margins and gross justification of the 20% of “fat cats” who get fat off of the backs of 80% of American workers.

No raises through 67 years, means a flat “inflation rate” which doesn’t rise unless wages rise.

“Lifestyle cost” doesn’t go up simply because “inflation” says. No.

“Lifestyle cost” goes up when wages go up.

The modern minimum wage ought to presently be at $23.00, however.

Oops, the markets forgot to payout The People.

The modern markets owe The American People 67 years of back pay in modern wages.

67 years of stagnant wages looks like miserable modern lifestyle for 80% of Americans.

80% of Americans make $30,000 per annual income per families of four.

The “inflation rate” isn’t allowed to go up unless wages do get a boost otherwise the “inflation rate” rises and nothing much else does rise thus the “inflation rate” looks silly getting plump all on its own and of its own accord with nothing to show for except air.

For the past sixty-seven years (1950’s-2017) the “inflation rate” took off all by its lonesome self without knowing the “inflation rate” must keep up with worker’s minimum wage otherwise the “inflation rate” is some delusional multi-millionaire trust fund baby without a clue as to today’s date or without a clue as to whether 80% of American people suffer or starve or not at the delusional commands placed against the average citizens and workers of any democratic nation without any relief in sight or vacations or sick pay since the “inflation rate” is lost in an abyss of delusional numbers and not based on any reality at all.

When people spearhead delusional number’s games then the democratic system doesn’t make sense on the ground since the numbers become “fake” and overinflated and deceitful and without mercy to stay and maintain calm with the slow rate of flat wages.

The reason why the “inflation rate” is ridiculously outmatched to current “lifestyle cost” is because whoever runs the “inflation rate” doesn’t live in reality and continually runs away with the “inflation rate” rather than truly sit down and run the numbers again and again with the current minimum wage in mind. Okay. Back to reality.

The “inflation rate” only has any business inflating when wages go up otherwise the “inflation rate” stays put and starves right alongside The People exactly where the minimum wages stagnates.

Please, don’t allow for any fake-money markets to dictate the price or cost of anything since markets are mainly fake numbers for which sits upon quick sand.

When civilians’ and workers’ pensions and retirements and sick pay are lost then the “inflation rate” and real estate market also stays stagnant since the “inflation rate” has nothing to gain or value when 80% of any democracy’s people starve then something’s off in the market value’s numbers and the markets are all awash and fake and nonexistent since at any point at which any democracy is starved then the numbers don’t match reality and the numbers don’t mean anything except only 20% gets to eat and 80% get to starve and this isn’t the definition of capitalism. No. It’s the definition of fascism.

In a democracy when capitalism works to its greatest potential then there’s a great “spread of wealth” and 80% of the democracy gets to eat since mainly workers get to sustain a healthy lifestyle because their working dollar is at work for them and not against the workers and their families.

When the “inflation rate” takes off and runs in the middle of dark and stormy nights to go and commit suicide against oceanic thrashing waves of danger then the “inflation rate” and the real estate market goes off the deep end and right about now the “inflation rate” and real estate market will be stopped from committing such heinous societal crimes against The people thus The People will rescue and forgive the “inflation rate” and real estate from making any more mean-spirited mistakes such as going off the deep end, in the dark and all by its lonesome self to perish without a single hope in the world.

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Markets Must Work Together

Markets are only as strong as their weakest link, stagnant wages.

Poor little “inflation rate” and real estate market didn’t know the “inflation rate” and the real estate market are factually a part of an entire collective markets’ ecosystem and not a part of some hypothetical “number’s game” stuck inside a bubble which doesn’t exist on the ground where the real people live and work and self maintain.

If and when wages stay stagnant for 67 years of America’s current history then the “inflation rate” and real estate market also stays stagnant at a “flat rate” and doesn’t inflate to anything and neither does any market value inflated rate unless wages go up otherwise there’s nothing to inflate to. Yep.

“The People’s” wages dictate the rate at which inflation goes up or down, not markets for the sake of inflation without any real meat to the bones.

If and when the “inflation rate” or real estate market gets “fat off the hog” then eventually the fat hog will burst like delusional real estate balloon economy which “balloon mortgages” are mainly deceitful numbers which don’t actually work on the ground with the real value of people’s annual income earned wages thus the banks and deceitful real estate market had to be bailed out in 2007, 2008, 2009…

“The People” are the majority therefore “The People’s” wages dictates how much or how little markets are worth as well as however much markets go up or down depending on wages and not the silly fake-money Wall Street’s stock market values or the embellished and wrong real estate market value which has no base or bearing on reality.

When 80% of American working families aren’t able to afford their housing then inflation drops as well as Wall Street’s market values as well as real estate market value otherwise the value of minimum wages is what determines reality to the other markets which refuse to be self regulated by the overall value of real outcome which is workers’ salaries and hourly rate pay and not deceitful or fake numbers.

Markets are dictated by annual income wages otherwise “lifestyle cost” is harmful to an amazing democratic working body of citizens.

Capitalism is second to democracy.

Democracy is the majority.

The majority is able to decide what market rates are valued at what percentages and not only experts in the game without a clue in the world as to how any of the markets actually affects (concern) The People’s democracy.

A democracy drives capitalism and not the other way around.

Totalitarianism runs tyrants.

P.S. Must take the rest of the week off. Must study divorce law.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000

Word Count: 1,835

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 1,835

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #6 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #37 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #31 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #10 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #4 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Monday, September 4, 2017

“Misers worship an idol.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Erosive (wearing away, changing by slow disintegration)

The erosive power of the river changed his property.

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

~~~

Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Love

Trumps

Hate

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The Most Dangerous Time

In Any Woman’s Life,

Is Right Before

Woman

Leaves

Any

Relationship

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Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 1,000 personal journals

Word Count:

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count:

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #5 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #37 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #31 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #10 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #4 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

Friday, September 1, 2017

“The fear of misfortune is worse than the misfortune.”

(Leo Rosten’s Treasury of Jewish Quotations)

Ramification (divisions, branches, places)

She studied the problem with all its ramifications.

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Why is it, if one doesn’t agree with “Caucasian privilege” then “Caucasian privilege” automatically thinks its mental illness? How about a matter of difference? Whatever happened to agreeing to disagree?

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No Whining

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“Only Thing We Have To Fear Is Fear Itself.”

--- J.F.K.

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“Fight for your right to party.”

--- Beastie Boys

~~~

Trump/Russia

Impeachment 2017

~~~

The F.B.I. is our only hope.

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Cocaine and Prostitution

Will be legalized

In 2017-2018

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Trumps

Hate

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In Any Woman’s Life,

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Any

Relationship

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“New Rules”

Modern Women

Los Angeles, CA and readers, I must stay on the line.

At the moment I’m a woman at risk for poverty and starvation. What’s new? Nothing.

The history of women is one of poverty and starvation.

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With Malicious Intent

My divorce situation is more serious than I previously thought as a “gullible” and “naïve” eight year long part time housewife and part time writer.

Okay, let’s begin with what I do know to be evident truths according to experts:

Fact: No, I’m neither “bipolar” nor “schizophrenic” nor “mentally ill” simply because my current legal partner or “Caucasian privileged” parents wish me to be. Medical conditions don’t work like that.

Fact: all three, my adopted dad in Duluth, MN and adopted Harvard, MA mom in Boston and husband in Robbinsdale, MN all advocated for me to be kept under lock-and-key in a psychiatric observation unit at North Memorial Hospital for one complete month. How cruel. There’s nothing wrong with me. I proved my sanity to one and all.

Fact: since August 2010, I haven’t held much or any type of close relationship to both of my adopted “Caucasian privileged” parents since my upbringing was violent and extremely emotionally and psychologically abusive.

Fact: my “Caucasian privileged” adopted parents totally resent the fact I simply don’t like either of their dry-alcoholic tendencies or emotional abused thus I don’t go around either of my parents since I’m forty and don’t ever have to go around my abusive family.

Fact: I’ve been told by medical experts I don’t ever have to give out my address or private or personal information to either my current husband or both of my “Caucasian privileged” adopted parents. Done.

Fact: my Harvard, MA adopted mother has been brainwashing the idea into me that I might be “schizophrenic” when factually I’m not “schizophrenic.”

Fact: No one truly knows if my birth mother was indeed and in fact “schizophrenic.”

Fact: the narrative of lies outlives the truth.

Fact: my adopted father and adopted mother and husband all want to lock me away in a mental institution, however. The law doesn’t work in such an abusive manner.

People with “bipolar” and “schizophrenia” do take their medications and hold down fulltime employment and live out amazingly wonderful lives.

Why must I always be threatened to be taken away and placed into a mental institution or thrown away and discarded like a piece of garbage?

Why must my livelihood and secure place in the world must continuously be threatened simply because I don’t like to be sexually harassed or sexually assaulted by my abusive dry-alcoholic family where my Italian, American Ipswich, MA wet-drunk uncle French kissed me and ten years ago my Harvard mother’s boyfriend took his erect penis and placed it right along my derriere’s crack while I stood at the kitchen stove and the rest of my family watched with great sadistic glee as to how I would react. The oppression almost brought me to tears.

Fact: my adopted Harvard, MA mother tried to kill me on December of 2005.

Fact: in December of 2005, my adopted Harvard, MA mother refused to tell me my younger sister had become a heroin addict and homeless in the streets of Miami, Florida thus and therefore my sister and I got into a verbal confrontation (my sister’s a trained boxer.) I’ve got nothing on my sister.

Fact: my sister lightly brushed by against my breasts and I pushed her away to guarantee my safety since my sister’s trained punches could probably blind me.

Fact: my adopted aggressive Harvard, MA mother only needed one good excuse to intervene between my sister and me thus she did.

Fact: on December, 2005, my adopted Harvard mother threw me to the ground and placed her 300 pounds of force and pressure against my chest and lungs. She held me in a “code red” and told me to concede to her literal pressure otherwise she continued to press down harder and harder with all of her 300 pounds of weight against my lungs as she smirked and smiled down at me until I felt my lungs practically give way therefore I had to concede to her morbid weight and freakish power hungry colonialism.

Fact: since I’m not like my “Caucasian privileged” family then my adopted Caucasian family is constantly trying to put me away in a mental institution thus I stay as far away as any mature adult humanly possibly does and can simply for self preservation. I think I’m justified and there’s no law for which I must be in contact and socially take care of my emotionally abusive family.

Fact: I’ve known for my entire upbringing our dry-alcoholic adopted parents don’t love themselves thus they don’t love us.

Fact: my Harvard, MA adopted mother was the biggest teenage marijuana drug dealer in the Back Bay of Boston in the 1960’s.

Fact: my adopted father was a marijuana drug dealer and spent time in jail for it.

Fact: my “Caucasian privileged” marijuana drug dealer adopted parents can’t stand the fact I don’t like or care for either of their company nor do I have to want a relationship to two extremely emotionally and psychologically abusive power hungry people who deep down inside still see themselves as the drug dealers they were. They can’t shake it thus they’re both stuck in the past and get in the way of progress. Retire already and go away and peacefully die off.

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With Malicious Force

Fact: No, I’m not “psychotic” which I still don’t know what “psychotic” means.

Fact: On the night of Monday, August 7th, 2017 at approximately 10:00pm CT one of North Memorial Hospital’s Caucasian female paramedics with a long blonde ponytail about 5’7” and 130 pounds without my permission or consent did in fact inject me with 300MG of “Ketamine” or better known as PCP. OMG.

Hypothetically, the cops and the paramedics could have raped me and I wouldn’t have known it.

300MG of anything is enough to kill a small horse. What on Earth?

North Memorial Hospital is an outdated institution for which is a dying breed.

If anyone can help it then don’t ever be admitted at North Memorial Hospital since anything Robbinsdale, MN touches is pure racist poison and 1950’s outdated malpractices, injustices and oppression.

To inject anyone with 300MG of anything is outdated cruelty and severe malpractice.

The thirty-something Caucasian blonde woman paramedic with a blonde ponytail could’ve literally killed me on the spot since she continuously refused to tell me how much and with what she injected me with thus she didn’t know if I was allergic to the incredible amounts of 300MG of “Ketamine” or not.

Wow, talk about a strong malpractice lawsuit.

Fact: under the influence of 300MG of “Ketamine” most likely anybody sounds “psychotic.”

Fact: North Memorial Hospital played a mean trick with me and my body and body chemistry.

Fact: when I was first kidnapped and administered into North Memorial Hospital all of the doctors at North Memorial Hospital advocated I was “psychotic” except for one doctor who advocated for me and thought I was only “semi-psychotic.”

To administer 300MG of PCP is sheer “psychotic” malpractice on any hospital’s part.

Fact: North Memorial Hospital makes its money on how many beds the hospital fills.

The more patients then the more money for the hospital thus of course, doctors advocate for their kidnapped patients to be “psychotic.”

Wow, to kidnap a human citizen and then against their will inject them with 300MG of “Ketamine” or PCP is in-and-of itself malpractice by any modern standards.

Fact: Yes, I whimpered and wept and cried while the two Caucasian police men cornered me at the backdoor of our home then by force held me down and was injected by 300MG of chemical poison (“Ketamine”) directly introduced into my bloodstream then literally carried away and taken by stretcher like a prisoner with my right wrist locked above my head and my left wrist locked down by my knees. OMG.

All I want is a divorce from my current legal partner. There’s no insanity in wanting a divorce after eight years a labor slave without wages or vacations.

The sheer cruelty and inappropriate part of an outdated 1950’s malpractice hospital and out of date medical protocol is only a business and not a science for which ought to catch up to date and see humans as humane rather than as dollar signs.

Please, don’t gross me out. I’m, too, lovely to be grossed out in such any manner or form of oppression by Minnesota’s racist forces at work.

Fact: my California best friends of 30 years with sociological and psychological degrees from the University of Minnesota inform me the only reason why I was kidnapped and injected with 300MG of “Ketamine” is to condition and force me to be “white.” Okay. I agree.

We’ve established a racist motive. Thank you.

Fact: since Saturday, August 12th, 2017, I’ve been fully moved into north, Minneapolis off of Thomas Avenue.

For three straight weeks my bedtime routine has taken place in north, Minneapolis and not at Ewing Avenue, Robbinsdale, MN therefore my current legal partner knows nothing of my bedtime routine yet he lies about it to my psychiatrist’s office. Ha. Funny. Truly.

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Malicious Lies

Fact: my current legal partner came to me homeless in the winter of 2006 only four months after I met him and he asked me to live with me in my two bedroom apartment. I rejected and denied him on many different accounts. I didn’t want him to move in with me while I was 28 and he was 42 as he was just getting divorced after his first marriage of 16 years.

Fact: since October 2008 my current legal partner has threatened to have me be moved into a women’s homeless shelter if I don’t do all of the cleaning and care and maintenance around our home thus I’ve been hard at work for eight straight years and haven’t seen my friends in ten years until May 2017 on my 40^th birthday through our turbulent marriage which with every step of the way threatens to leave me homeless on the streets. Not okay by any modern standards.

Fact: as of this morning at 9:20am CT I directly found out from my psychiatrist my current legal partner has called up their offices wanting to know about my private medical business and no one will let him through since there’s no consent form for my current legal partner to know anything about me. Thank you.

Fact: my current legal partner called up my psychiatrist’s office and once more blatantly lied about how I’m not taking my 5MG of OLANzapine which isn’t true all since as of today it’s been almost and nearly one complete month for which I haven’t lived under the same roof as my current legal partner thus he doesn’t know anything about me for a fact. Yep.

My 5MG of OLANzapine is meant to be taken right before bedtime. I faithfully take my 5MG of OLANzapine as prescribed for the past two straight weeks since I’m under a great deal of stress and impeccable amount of pressure to supposedly “crack” under the pressure except by-and-by I’m built and think as strong athletes do -- for long endurance and mental calm and evenness no matter how out-of-control anybody else might be or negatively acts out or lies about me.

My current legal partner hasn’t been truthful about much since this divorce seems to be about money.

The lies continuously surface as lies.

The lies are obvious to the professional experts for whom my current legal partner continually lies about me and thankfully the lies are being caught by experts. Thank you.

Fact: my current legal partner lied about anything I said and told North Memorial Hospital that I had said, “Harvard’s going to take over Robbinsdale.” Ha. How funny is that? Truly, funny.

What would Harvard want with Robbinsdale, MN? Absolutely, nothing.

Robbinsdale, MN is a blue collar zest pool of 1950’s racism.

Harvard doesn’t have to take over Robbinsdale, MN since “gentrification” already took a strong foothold here and downtown, Robbinsdale, MN is as expensive as uptown, Minneapolis, MN.

Indeed there’s “social engineering” at work and not because I say so. It is so.

Fact: when we first moved to Robbinsdale, MN five years ago in the summer of August 2012, Robbinsdale, MN was a blue collar working town and in a few short years Robbinsdale, MN is now a “yuppie” trend and gentrified place where the last of the 1950’s blue collar racists live.

1950’s racists are a dying breed.

By the look of it Robbinsdale, MN is a dying breed from 1950’s blue collar racial hatred.

Fact: No, I’m not “Caucasian privilege.”

Fact: Yes, I’m a woman of color even though only Minnesota Caucasians seem extremely racist against me to bluntly tell me to my face Caucasians feel safe with me since “Caucasians” don’t consider me a woman of color. What. OMG. I make Caucasians feel good about themselves thus Caucasians deem to rob me of my heritage and racial background and Ancestors and history.

Racial ignorance is most trite and boring aspect in America.

Mean spirited racism is worse than full on hatred.

Each and every time an ignorant Caucasian person tells me I’m considered “Caucasian” I tend to cringe and run away from such ignorance as quickly as possible.

As a hypothetical example: If Nazis came and put people of color into train boxes to be carted off to the gas chambers to be murdered then I’d still be rounded up as a person of color and hauled off and packed into a “train of the dead.”

Yes, I’m a woman of color at high risk for poverty and starvation while my current legal partner banks an annual income of about seventy-thousand dollars per year.

In America there’s no crime in being poor or starved.

Poverty and starvation isn’t against the law for anyone to be poor or starved.

Poverty and starvation is against the Maya gods for me to be poor or starved after eight years of part time cleaning and manual labor like a slave without pay and hardly ever leaving the house.

Fact: I’m a free American Citizen of the United States of America. Period.

The law’s on my side.

My current legal partner may think as he wishes when I factually well deserve 50% for the manual labor I put in for the past eight years of a turbulent marriage. I’m victimized here by “Caucasian privilege” and misuse of power.

As of now I have nothing to my name and go food insecure.

This divorce is about money.

My current legal partner wants to prove me certifiably “insane” thus he may keep the house and the car and the dog. I’m more heart sick about the dog than the house or the car or the farm.

Yours Truly;

Gabriel

Word Count Goal: 2,500

Word Count: 2,638

This Week’s Total Word Count Goal: 5,000

This Week’s Total Word Count: 5,000+

One Year Health Goal for each of the following Items:

*) Day #2 without verbal swear words. I like it.

*) Day #1 without a cigarette. It’s alright. I like it.

*) Blood Pressure: 102/66 mmHg / Pulse: 86 (04/07/17), 125/85 75 (08/18/17)

*) CHOLESTEROL, Total

294 (10/20/2014), 245 (06/02/15), 276 (01/22/16), 273 (04/07/17)

HDL Cholesterol

49 (10/20/2014), 50 (06/02/15), 52 (01/22/16), 53 (04/07/17)

Triglycerides

296 H (10/20/2014), 241 H (06/02/15), 253 H (01/22/16), 389 (04/07/17)

LDL-Cholesterol

186 H (10/20/2014), 147 H (06/02/15), 173 H (01/22/16) 142 (04/07/17)

CHOL/HDLC RATIO

6.0 H (10/20/2014), 4.9 (06/02/15), 5.3 H (01/22/16) 5.2 (04/07/17)

NON HDL CHLOESTEROL

245 H (10/20/2014), 195 H (06/02/15), 224 H (01/22/16)

IRON, Total

79 mcg/dl (10/20/2014), 52 mcg/dl (06/02/15), 137 mcg/dl (01/22/16)

CORTISOL, Total

19.2 (10/20/2014), N/A (06/02/15), 11.9 (01/22/16)

*) Week #36 without any higher dosage of birth control pill: “Zovia 1/50E (28) 1-50 MG-MCG”

*) Week #30 without one sleeping pill per night by mouth “Zolpidem Tartrate” 10 MG

*) Week #9 (1st prescribed 09/03/15) without antidepressants specifically for fake-pregnancy hormones, one per day by mouth, no more: “Escitalopram Oxalate” 20 MG (06/21/17 end of dosage.)

*) Week #3 (09/07/17) on antidepressants specifically to get over

fake-pregnancy hormones “OLANZapine” 5MG.

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